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Sunday 27 September 2015

My Weight Loss Story {and action plan}

Today I would like to spill my guts {and heart} with regard to being healthy and weight management. It’s hard and not a very nice story, but if it helps 1 person then I have accomplished what I wanted to.

I have always been a pudgy, chubby child. Not entirely out of shape, but I had flabby parts. In my life I have had people tell me to my face that I am fat, I have been called names, been rejected and ignored (especially by the opposite sex) and had someone very close to me hurt me right in the center of my being because of my weight.

I had a girl follow me around in Gr2 constantly shouting at my back {I could not face her} that I am a fatty-boom-boom {it made a very nice chant}. I even had a person blackmail me with regard to my eating habits. 

I have developed an unhealthy relationship with food. Whenever I am sad or angry or need a lift-me-up, I would turn to food. It used to be fast food for example KFC, McDonalds etc. Sweets, chips, chocolates and cookies very often made their appearance too. Over the years I have turned to carbs a lot more. I replaced fast food with pasta, bread and refined carbs like crisps. I also have a bad habit of eating when I am bored.

Ever since I was little I have always had someone watch me with a hawk’s eye.  It is safe to say that I have been best friends with doctors and dietitians since I was born {this is not just because of my weight but due to the fact that I am a type 1 Diabetic}. 

Why I am telling you all this? I need you to know that the struggle is real and where I come from. This is not just another post with some tips of the internet and that this is as real as it is going to get. 

I broke up with a boyfriend many years ago and at that stage I was immensely over weight {but not obese}. After it ended I really felt disgusted with myself and I decided to take action. I lost 10kg’s. I was so proud and I felt great. I have gained the weight again and lost some and it went see-saw like that for a quite a few years. 

In 2010 I was the leanest I have ever been, but from there it kind of went south. I have gained all the weight I lost and I have back fat! I live in my “fat pants” and denims {my favorite thing in my closet} are almost a no-go these days. I can blame this on many events in my life and I can pin point where things went wrong, but it doesn’t matter. What matters today, right now is that I am going to try again. My dietitian once told me that if I did not try I would have been at a much worse place than I am now. 

It is really challenging! I wanted to lose a few kg’s before my 30th birthday {it is part of my goals for 2015}, but you know what. I failed again. Up until today I have not lost a single kg. I did, but I gained again. I feel like such a failure, but I am going to try again. 

After all this and everything that happened I have come to a point where I knew I needed some accountability. So, this is the reason I am telling you all this. I have made a decision to put this out there, on my spot on the internet, and make myself accountable to someone.

This is how I am going to do it. 

My mom and I were driving to the mall earlier this week and they were talking about a new diet on the radio. Another quick fix. I remember telling my mom that people are approaching a healthy lifestyle the wrong way. I never go on diets. I have banned the word diet from my vocabulary.  What I have been doing is trying to cut out junk from my menus and trying to fill it with healthier choices {it’s a daily struggle}.  

I am armed with everything that I need to know with regard to me being healthy, getting fit and losing weight. I have heard the same things over and over. No carbs at dinner, less carbs throughout the day, get rid of {added} sugar-obviously for my diabetes as well-healthy fats, more fiber, fruits etc. I have also decided to stay away from a scale until I see my dietitian again {in November}. What I want to focus on is making healthier choices and to start moving again. The couch is hurting my back.

I am going to forget about my original goal in my 2015 goals and focus on getting me mentally and physically strong and healthy without the pressure of losing x-amount of kg’s. 

I am taking the day-by-day approach. Life happens and setting unrealistic goals puts unnecessary pressure on you.

My action plan:
♥ I would like to start drinking more water. Now, I do not want to drown myself and I am aiming for 1.5L a day, but if I only make 1L that is perfect. It is more than no water at all. I bought this water bottle from Typo and I love it! It is snazzy and it keeps 1L! It is much easier on you mentally to get that 1L. I know..a lot of mind games.
You can go and buy yourself one here for ZAR99.00 (AUS$9.99)
♥ I would like to move more. I don’t necessarily mean running 10km’s or going to the gym 5 times a week-don’t be unrealistic. When I say move, I mean take the stairs instead of the lift {I never take the lift, but I am just saying} or go for a walk when you have the chance instead of watching nonsense on TV. This video of Suzelle DIY is great inspiration {link not affiliated} 

I had a personal trainer and I attended bootcamp for a few months. Unfortunately due to unforeseen circumstances I cannot afford either of these anymore. I have held onto this reason for quite some time. It was a comfort zone. “Oh I don’t have the money so I will stay on the couch”. Enough is enough. I went onto my Pinterest (Healthy Living Pinterest Board) where I have aimlessly pinned hundreds of quick exercise charts and chose one that I know I can fit into my day. It is short, quick and I tried it last night- I can feel the burn!

♥ I would like to start attending races {or fun runs} again. There is no excuse to not attend one. We have at least 5 races every Saturday morning all around us. I am going to try and fit in a race at least once a month. It is realistic and reachable.

♥ I am going to try and make healthier choices with regard to my daily meals. I would like join my friend in October and take part in her No-Choctober month. I am going to limit my carbs, but I am not removing anything, just watching portions and be a little strict with myself. I am also going to try to stop eating when I am bored. Good luck to me!

♥ I had a laugh when I saw a picture once saying that “Don’t reward yourself with food, you are not a dog”. Everybody loves rewards and something to work towards. So my motivation would be (I already own clothes I can work with it is just pulling it off) my My style inspo Pinterest Board. I would like to pull off these outfits ‘cause it is just so beautiful and all girls like feeling beautiful right?

I am keeping it simple. I don’t want to overwhelm myself and lose my rhythm before I even started. I will also check in again round about the same time my goals must come to an end and be reviewed.

I want you to understand one thing. I am doing this for me and nobody else. I am tired of being where I am and I would like to be healthy and fit when I turn 80 {hopefully} one day. I shared this if there is someone that needed a story like this. I am not done yet. I will keep on trying, because by trying I am not going backwards and I am demolishing all the lies I have been told by those ugly, rude people. 

I will leave you with this thought today:
I hope you took something positive from this today. If you have a story to share you are more than welcome to share it in the comments below or contact me.

Speak to you soon!

Remember-you are lovely!

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